{"id":1996,"date":"2025-04-19T17:09:07","date_gmt":"2025-04-19T17:09:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bobboydpoems.com\/i-look-forward-to-dying-though-not-in-a-suicidal-sense\/"},"modified":"2025-04-19T17:09:07","modified_gmt":"2025-04-19T17:09:07","slug":"i-look-forward-to-dying-though-not-in-a-suicidal-sense","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bobwriting.com\/poems\/i-look-forward-to-dying-though-not-in-a-suicidal-sense\/","title":{"rendered":"I Look Forward to Dying Though Not in a Suicidal Sense"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/bobwriting.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/04\/malesouldafterlife-300x300.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"300\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-9639\" \/><\/p>\n<p>I\u2019ve lived 80 years of life, have lived in many places,<br>\nmany states and Europe and the Philippines.<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019ve had a reasonably full life with many adventures<br>\nand have no need for more earthly adventures.<\/p>\n<p>I see death as the greatest adventure ever.<\/p>\n<p>I see death as a shedding of earthly cares and<br>\na temporary body with it\u2019s vulnerabilities to<br>\naging, disabilities and diseases that one is<br>\nrid of when newly born young and fresh<br>\nin the afterlife.<\/p>\n<p>And I am in a position with no attachments,<br>\nso I can easily let go when death comes.<\/p>\n<p>If I had a girlfriend or a wife, my heart would<br>\nbreak at even the thought of leaving her.<br>\nI would not want to let go unless we could<br>\ngo together. <\/p>\n<p>I\u2019d fight to stay alive with every iota of my<br>\nbeing to stay with her and not leave her<br>\nbehind while I ascended into what I see as<br>\na greater, wonderous world.<\/p>\n<p>But because I\u2019m so accepting of dying,<br>\nand because I feel so incredibly good,<br>\nstill working out, exercising daily,<br>\nas if I were nearly indestructible,<br>\nI\u2019ll probably be here for many more years,<br>\nmore than I want to be.<\/p>\n<p>And as you can never say never, maybe<br>\none day I\u2019ll be blissfully anchored<br>\nto this world with a girlfriend or a wife<br>\nand unable to let go when death comes.<\/p>\n<p>Or maybe like sometimes happens,<br>\nwe\u2019d go out together or each would<br>\ndie within days of the other.<\/p>\n<p>In the meantime, come Death<br>\ntake me home to what I believe<br>\nis my true home.<\/p>\n<p>And though I\u2019m not a fundamentalist<br>\nChristian but a devout believer in Christ<br>\nin a non-churched mystical fashion,<br>\nmaybe Jesus will meet me at the doorway<br>\nto death and take me to paradise.<\/p>\n<p>Or maybe I\u2019ll merge with the cosmos,<br>\nbecome post life enlightened and live<br>\nforever in the eternal bliss consciousness.<\/p>\n<p>Whatever the outcome, I look forward to dying<br>\nthough not in a suicidal sense.<\/p>\n<p>Bob Boyd       <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I\u2019ve lived 80 years of life, have lived in many places, many states and Europe and the Philippines. I\u2019ve had a reasonably full life with many adventures and have no need for more earthly adventures. I see death as the greatest adventure ever. I see death as a shedding of earthly cares and a temporary&hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/bobwriting.com\/poems\/i-look-forward-to-dying-though-not-in-a-suicidal-sense\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bobwriting.com\/poems\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1996"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bobwriting.com\/poems\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bobwriting.com\/poems\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bobwriting.com\/poems\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bobwriting.com\/poems\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1996"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/bobwriting.com\/poems\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1996\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bobwriting.com\/poems\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1996"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bobwriting.com\/poems\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1996"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bobwriting.com\/poems\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1996"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}