pay exorbitant costs for cable tv
watch Netflix after it hosted the movie cuties
travel 8,000 miles for love again
drive thousands of miles
work out with heavy weights anymore
seek a woman on a dating site
or misuse the sanctity of church by going to one just to try to meet a woman
though maybe one day I could get so intolerably lonely I’d sacrifice my principles on the alter of love, lol
be a joiner of anything
be controlled by anyone
be a fan of any celebrities
think of myself as better than anyone
stop believing in our country often you get the justice you can afford
be okay with politicians who get rich as public servants and seem more like opportunists than patriots
try to be better than others at anything
feel the need to try to get my poems published
have a fear of dying
believe that a religion or spiritual path is the only way
believe a loving God would ever send anyone to hell or be okay with eternal damnation
take testosterone replacement therapy
though I wouldn’t mind having the extra T
watch sports any more that are violent
though I used to be an avid fan of combat sports
go to a senior center
senior centers just don’t work for me
stop working out and giving up on fitness
get overweight
stop eating ice cream, chocolate and occasionally pastries
can’t see being too spartan when it comes to
sweets
stop drinking coffee
stop taking 48 grams of protein powder daily and vitamins and supplements
hang out with guys and shoot the breeze
don’t feel the need for male comradery
and small talk daily bores me
except with a woman I love with whom
small talk forever would be enchanting
give up on living and feel like killing myself
drink alcohol or get high on drugs
insult people in person or on the Internet
lose my temper in an auto accident or a close call
stop writing poems as long as still I’m able to keep writing them
Bob Boyd