i used to worry about the heartache, the loss, of waking up one day and finding a woman i loved dead

that it would be the most heartbreaking loss that could ever happened
that my heart would break into a thousand pieces for her
that i’d cry thousands and thousands of tears over her death
from missing her and maybe never seeing her again
from the real possibility that our love was over forever
and i would not want to go on living without her
though i would go on living, but i would never be the same without her
and i would feel as though my heart died with her

now i see things differently from having been near death
and from all i learned about near death experiences
though my heart would still be broken in a thousand pieces
i would feel convinced she would experience the awakening of a lifetime
and be happier than anyone could ever be in this temporary life
where in a millisecond everything can go horribly awry
and based on what i know about deathbed visions
i would believe I would see her when i died and quite possibly
spend an eternity in love with her forever

bob boyd

Author: BobBoyd

Age 80. Cancer survivor since 3 years ago. Work out 3 times a week. Ride my exercise bike 2 hours a day. Live a solo reclusive life. Retired a year ago from working with the elderly in a nonprofit. Started writing poetry a little over a year ago; most poems I write are fictional but some are not. Spiritual with a permanent spiritual experience. Write poems on many subjects. Always researching for many of my poems and because of my unquenchable thirst for knowledge. After reading and hearing about many near death experiences and death bed visions, I believe death is the ultimate awakening and the relocation of a lifetime. You may believe differently, but you have the right to be wrong -- I'm just messing with you. :-) View all posts by BobBoyd