Day: June 13, 2025

i’m not sure why
but i have reached
a state of equanimity
or maybe indifference
where i no longer care
if i were to die into
nothingness

if my like ended and
there was no afterlife
if what was me was
obliterated into
me no more forever
with every vestige
of what i had been
erased
i just don’t care

this is not just
false bravado
this is real
i just don’t care

based on the many
ndes i’ve read and
listened to

i believe the afterlife
is glorious
compared to earth life

but if all those wondrous
nde reports were illusionary
and one just died and that
was it and nothing more
i’m good with that

and quite frankly
if reincarnation is real
if we are all fated
to keep reincarnating
i would rather die
into nothingness than
to ever return to earth
again

bob boyd

i think a lot of characteristics in a person’s
behavior and personality are predetermined
like psychopaths
who
i learned yesterday cannot be changed
who
did not wake up one day and decide to be
that way
you might be wondering what this has
to do
with a woman who was uncommonly nice
she was a woman who always woke up
happy
this was not a choice
it was i believe predetermined in her
and unlike most people i have met
few seemed to have the characteristic
i saw her as a lucky anomaly and i
never understood how anyone could
ever wake up happy
just like i never understood whey some
people are fated to be born
psychopathic
and along with waking up happy
she was also uncommonly nice

bob boyd

some butterflies live up to ten weeks
but most die after only a few
i imagine to a butterfly a few weeks
or ten weeks could seem as long as
70 or 100 years to a human
that is if a butterfly is capable of
having any idea of its time on earth
but in regard to a butterfly’s lifespan
many don’t make it to the 3 to 10 weeks
butterflies have scores of predators
who hunt and devour them
that aside i wonder where butterflies
go when they die
i hope they don’t just die into
nothingness
imagine if there really is a heaven
and butterflies dance their
in celestial skies

bob boyd