Day: June 20, 2025

When I was young and extremely optimistic,
I thought I could build muscle as long as I lived,
or at the least, maintain it.

Now from knowledge I know that as a young man
I was ignorant and naively optimistic.

Now that I’m an old man who has lost his
muscle mass, I know from experience that I was
mistaken.

Of course, I could take testosterone replacement
shots and maintain and maybe build some muscle
mass as an old man.

But I feel that there are risks that don’t make it
worth the weekly or biweekly testosterone shots.

So, zenlike, I have come to accept the muscle
wastage effects of aging and the inevitable
decline of one’s body.

Bob Boyd

When someone said, “I will love you till I die,”
I always felt that was too limited, like an
insufficient love.

Like as if death would end a love that should
be forever.

Like a halfhearted declaration of what should
have been a never ending love.

I was always an I will love you forever romantic
and felt limiting love to just this life was unromantic.

Now I think maybe I love you till I die proclamations
are more correct and realistic.

And I love you forevers might be unrealistic and only
wishful, given love might end with death.

Given lovers’ lives might end with death despite
contrary claims by people who have been briefly
dead but not entirely.

Given if as I believe life continues in the afterlife,
maybe romantic love is nonexistent there.

Of maybe we reincarnate and one love is lost in
the transition to another life and another love.

But if I ever fall in love again, though doubtful,
I’m sticking with I will love you forever.

Bob Boyd

Fish Tank Dream

Won a fish tank and fish in a dream.
Didn’t want the tank or the fish.
Have too many tanks and fish.
Had to accept the win in the dream.
I’m unsure why that was.
I fretted over the tank and the fish
I didn’t need or want.
Upon awakening from the dream,
I immediately had a solution.
Just give the tank and the fish away.

Bob Boyd